23 May 2012
question of the day #40
how is it that finn can go almost 12hrs without peeing or pooping in his scoobs at night, but during that 1.5hr nap, he always wakes up with a gross bum? i'm losing my mind over this, people. losing. my. mind.
06 May 2012
on a personal note
i've been feeling really downtrodden lately. well, for the last year, since we've been trying to add to our family. i've watched lots of friends and acquaintances, even my sister who wasn't planning on more kids, get pregnant and have these soft, beautiful, pink babies. it is amazing what it will do to one's psyche, to desire another child more than anything else in the world and be denied that privilege, that blessing. month after month. after month. i felt like maybe it was my fault. or mor's fault (since i'm being completely honest here). is it because i enjoy my daily mtn dew? or because mor has been downing monster energy drinks to help him stay awake after hours at work and then hours of studying? am i eating too much protein? not enough? too many sweets and treats? not enough green and yellow veggies? is 7hrs of sleep not enough if it doesn't fall between 10p & 6a? why is it just.
not.
happening?
and then it hit me...i needed to hear from my heavenly father; i needed him to comfort me. so, i asked mor for a priesthood blessing. and it was beautiful. i immediately knew that he hadn't forsaken me or forgotten me; he hadn't been deaf to my prayers and pleads. he knows me. he LOVES me. he reminded me that ALL things are done in HIS time. he calmed my fears even if he didn't specifically answer my questions. and i'm finally at peace with what's been happening, or not happening, every 28 days. because i know his plan for me is so much bigger, so much better than i could ever possibly imagine.
not.
happening?
and then it hit me...i needed to hear from my heavenly father; i needed him to comfort me. so, i asked mor for a priesthood blessing. and it was beautiful. i immediately knew that he hadn't forsaken me or forgotten me; he hadn't been deaf to my prayers and pleads. he knows me. he LOVES me. he reminded me that ALL things are done in HIS time. he calmed my fears even if he didn't specifically answer my questions. and i'm finally at peace with what's been happening, or not happening, every 28 days. because i know his plan for me is so much bigger, so much better than i could ever possibly imagine.
well i never...
...saw all of titanic (to be honest, i don't remember ever sitting down to actually watch this, but i'm sure i've seen some of it, i think...?) or my girl or groundhog day or what about bob?
...saw any of braveheart (except for the "but they'll never take our freedom!" clip) or schindler's list or american history x (except for the face to the curb part) or any of the monty python movies or the hangover (after the misery that was pineapple express, i swore off rated r movies)
...will tire of watching clue or shag or nancy drew (yes, the one with emma roberts)
...should have chosen pink and green as our wedding colors; i should have chosen cream and midnight blue
...like to be without some sort of tan line; no matter how faint, i NEED them!
...thought i'd spend more than $25 on a bra, let alone $100 on two (ridiculous, victoria's secret. absolutely ridiculous.)
...have liked people who publicly pat themselves on the back or seek recognition for good deeds
...wanted to live in utah after i graduated college, which was EIGHT years ago now, but with a view like ours how can you not love it (sometimes)?
...should have gone long boarding that one time (kal and erica can testify to the horrendous adventure that was; as can the scars i still sport on my hip and side)
...remember dreams; but i do remember nightmares
...listen to, read or watch the news; i find it all so very depressing (and mor usually updates me on it all anyway)
...thought i would choose water to drink over practically anything else
...can go a day without a sweet treat of some kind
...will get used to saying good-byes when leaving family
...have learned how to "properly" apply makeup; i'm adept enough at mascara and lip gloss, but that's about it
...thought i would like painted nails
...have been out of the country (except for that one time to canada, but that was before even they required passports)
...saw any of braveheart (except for the "but they'll never take our freedom!" clip) or schindler's list or american history x (except for the face to the curb part) or any of the monty python movies or the hangover (after the misery that was pineapple express, i swore off rated r movies)
...will tire of watching clue or shag or nancy drew (yes, the one with emma roberts)
...should have chosen pink and green as our wedding colors; i should have chosen cream and midnight blue
...like to be without some sort of tan line; no matter how faint, i NEED them!
...thought i'd spend more than $25 on a bra, let alone $100 on two (ridiculous, victoria's secret. absolutely ridiculous.)
...have liked people who publicly pat themselves on the back or seek recognition for good deeds
...wanted to live in utah after i graduated college, which was EIGHT years ago now, but with a view like ours how can you not love it (sometimes)?
...should have gone long boarding that one time (kal and erica can testify to the horrendous adventure that was; as can the scars i still sport on my hip and side)
...remember dreams; but i do remember nightmares
...listen to, read or watch the news; i find it all so very depressing (and mor usually updates me on it all anyway)
...thought i would choose water to drink over practically anything else
...can go a day without a sweet treat of some kind
...will get used to saying good-byes when leaving family
...have learned how to "properly" apply makeup; i'm adept enough at mascara and lip gloss, but that's about it
...thought i would like painted nails
...have been out of the country (except for that one time to canada, but that was before even they required passports)
question of the day #39
what are the odds i would be arrested if i were to post up at our bedroom window and shoot bbs at the neighborkids who think our backyard is their playground?
(i have found them playing hide and seek behind our trash can (in which there is poop : penny poop and porter poop and sometimes even finn poop; who wants to hide there?!), sliding down finn's slide, kicking around finn's soccer ball and most recently playing in finn's pool and with his pool toys. i have finally become the crotchety old neighborlady who shoos kids out of her yard with a broom. well, i haven't used a broom on them yet. perhaps i should try that before i bust out the bbs, hmm?)
(i have found them playing hide and seek behind our trash can (in which there is poop : penny poop and porter poop and sometimes even finn poop; who wants to hide there?!), sliding down finn's slide, kicking around finn's soccer ball and most recently playing in finn's pool and with his pool toys. i have finally become the crotchety old neighborlady who shoos kids out of her yard with a broom. well, i haven't used a broom on them yet. perhaps i should try that before i bust out the bbs, hmm?)
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